And now 2010,my motto arrived a couple of weeks ago when a lovely new friend named Renee from http://circlingmyhead.blogspot.com/ said to me
"Fear is not a good place to live darling. You can't live there, because fear will steal some piece of you everyday.
Don't let it."
Love Renee xoxoxo
December 16, 2009 10:17 AM
When my husband became sick, my attitude towards many things changed...I began to appreciate things more deeply,every breathe,every hug,every laugh,every taste,every ounce of love.For this change I am ever so grateful....But "Fear" also carefully placed itself at my side,it stuck to me like glue.I now fear loss,I fear for my children,I fear missed opportunities,I fear the collapse of my mind and body,I fear pain,
I fear the words,"If I had only..." and so many more.
So thank you Renee..this year I choose to put "Fear" where it belongs...not at my side,but behind me.
The mosquito is so small it takes almost nothing to ruin it.Each leaf, the same.
And the black ant, hurrying.So many lives, so many fortunes!
Every morning, I walk softly and with forward glances
down to the ponds and through the pinewoods.
Mushrooms, even, have but a brief hour before
the slug creeps to the feast,before the pine needles hustle down under
the bundles of harsh, beneficent rain.How many, how many, how many
make up a world! And then I think of that old idea: the singular and the eternal.
One cup, in which everything is swirled back to the color of the
sea and sky. Imagine it! A shining cup, surely! In the moment in
which there is no wind over your shoulder, you stare down into it,
and there you are, your own darling face, your own eyes.And then the
wind, not thinking of you, just passes by, touching the ant, the mosquito,
the leaf, and you know what else! How blue is the sea, how blue is the
sky, how blue and tiny and redeemable everything is, even you,even your
eyes, even your imagination.