Thursday, March 7, 2013

Around the Bend

There is something in the air I breathe today.A gift in the silence.This gift has opened me up and magnified everything around me.The cold air and throbbing pain in my right hand.The bird flying overhead,the song on the radio, and the thoughts of moments past...that at last have become clear.All of these things,I am profoundly thankful for.

There are moments when things become very clear.So clear that they frighten me in believing that it will never come again...but that feeling soon passes and I am again able to see with new eyes.
So many kind souls on journeys of their own..each searching...hoping to find what they seek around the bend... aren't we all straining our necks to see.
These moments of clarity,when you reach out your hand and grab your truth,and claim it as your own.
It's a step,the first step.

Years ago when I first started on my creative journey,I did not think for one minute that it would lead me to where I am today.I feel blessed to be able to do what I love everyday....but when I left my day job last month,of 21 years,fear settled in.

...but this morning as I walked in the sun,breathing in the cold air as I brought  in the groceries, Grace reminded me of the words that choose me for 2013..
"Out of Love,not Fear" Elie Tahari
"Out of Love,not Fear"
and I knew at that moment that for the last month..I was doing it out of fear,not love.
and I knew that last week when I told someone about my "wall" of making friends...that that wall was now gone and I was ready again,open again.
and I knew that the pain in my right hand was a reminder,a reminder that I was blessed to work with them and every now and then this pain comes for all those that cant...
and I knew that my frustration in the last couple of days was really about wanting to find a local tribe...a gathering of those that want the same...that want to learn everyday and show Gratitude.
at that my hand touched the wall and I stretched out my neck 
I could see
and so are you.

"Long ago God drew a circle in the sand exactly around the spot where you are standing right now. You were never not coming here. This was never not going to happen.” — Elizabeth Gilbert

Here's to making every minute count,


Sunny K. Lee said...

Cat hope you are having a wonderful and blessed day :)

Anonymous said...

Beautiful Cat. I am part of your tribe and you are part of mine, just from a distance my friend. But I am always here for you.....and I love your blossoming and your fear and your gentle and loving spirit.....I am lucky to know you. xox

Cyndi J said...

Beautifully written, my friend. Yes, we are all on our own journeys but I am fortunate that on my journey I met you. May all your dreams continue to come true.

Sugar Lump Studios said...

Beautiful post Cat! We all need reminders! thank you for sharing this!

CS said...

Beautiful post Cat. It is a reminder we are where we are supposed to be. Your friends are lucky to have you in their lives.

Caterina Giglio said...

wonderful, so perfect, and two cats think alike... xo

Anvil Artifacts said...

Cat, you have expressed these sentiments so eloquently. I hope that this new journey fills you with wonder and delight each day. I for one am so glad to know you, even though it is from afar.

Sea Witch said...

Blessings to you Cat. Thinking of the vast artistic gifts you possess as I look again at the lovely bracelet you created for me over a year ago. Exquisite Joy reminds me of the miracle we have with Kit Kat and now provides me strength and tenacity as I deal with my post total knee replacement surgery. PT is a bitch but worth it. So Blessings to you and those you love.

Chris said...

Cat, I was so amazed with your decision to leave your "day job" at HD. Part of me was a bit envious, but the bigger part inside realizes how much I cling to my day job ordinariness, comfortable sameness and a routine paycheck.
We love you Cat.
We are your tribe of friends rooting for you, happy for you, smiling at you.
Sending you love, Art Little Sis~

Alice said...

What a beautiful post. I went through something similar several years ago, although not by my choice. I was lost and floundering. But here we are and making it work. I would not change a thing.

I love the quote from Elizabeth.

Have a wonderful weekend!

Susan said...

Dear Cat,

Thank you for sharing your beautifully written post. Again, it touches on something so universal, yet personal. It reminds us all of what we need to hear, right now, right where we are.

You are a blessing to so many.


Dede said...

Living in the moment....blessings to you my friend.


kj said...

Oh gulp, cat. This is stunning; your insights, your journey, your gratitude. You left your job? That is so great. Me too, this coming may. I am over the moon about it (Renee: harharhar)

Where ever I am now headed, I know is as it should be. I love that Elizabeth Gilbert quote

And to trust in friendship again: that is gold. I think once we trust ourselves, who and who not to trust is no longer an issue

Love love

Teresa said...

Thank you so much for sharing this inspiring post, it was exactly what I needed to see today. We are all blessed by your unselfishness and insight and I feel personally blessed to have found you.
I hope you don't mind if I share this post on my blog, tiny as it is.
Keep creating.

Warmest Regards,